Chocolate Can't Fix Everything

Chocolate heals a broken heart
It mends a torn soul
Chocolate cheers you up
It saves you from starvation
Chocolate makes the world go `round

But if chocolate heals a broken heart
Why is mine not whole again?
And if chocolate mends a torn soul
Why is mine still in shreds?

Because
Chocolate isn’t enough
to heal this deep wound
It isn’t enough
to piece together my shattered heart
It isn’t enough
to save my life this time

If chocolate makes the world go `round
But it can’t even save my soul
All that’s left for me to do
Is sit and watch my life
Get thrown away

And if chocolate makes the world go `round
I suppose my world has stopped turning
It has lost its gravitational pull
And is falling
A
Long
Way
Down

A Prayer For Help

Dear Lord ~

I try to stay calm
As I am taunted
Day and night

Without the proof
They won’t believe
So they ask again,
“Where is your God?”

O Lord,
I long for your help
For I have no answer
But:

Up in the heavens
Watching over you

In the flowers
And the birds

In the sky
And on the ground

I have no visible proof
You must just
Believe

O Lord
Come quickly to my aid
Take over my lips
Give me the words
To say

Send me with
Your message
To untwist the tongues
Of the unfaithful

~Amen

I Did It Because I Love You

I’ve been crying all night
It’s keeping me awake
I need some sleep
I’ve used up all my energy
These past few days

I’ve exploded
One too many times
I finally burst
Into flame

I’m on fire
My heart is burning
My head is erupting
My faith is dying
My soul is crying
And my conscience
Gave up on me

I’m sorry I hurt you
I told you I couldn’t explain it
I told you I don’t fully understand
I told I need help
But we kept going

But what hurt the most
Was your last message to me
You suffocated me
Stabbed me in the heart
I’m sorry
I love you
But I’m dying
And I don’t think anything
Can bring me back this time

I Wish I Could Tell You... I Love You

Head pounding
Heart burning
I’m melting for you

Tears falling
Courage hiding
I wish I could tell you

That I love you
And I want you
Darling
Will you be my baby

Ears listening
Jaw dropping
I can’t believe
What I just heard

Makeup smearing
Heart breaking
I’m crying because

You love her
But you just cant tell her
Well that’s how I feel about you

Cant you see
Cant you tell

That I love you boy
And I want you
Darling
Will you be my baby

Is Love Really Worth All The Pain

Blood stains my skin
As my heart is ripped
Right from my chest

I still feel the beating
As he holds it
Inches from my face

Taunting me
Reminding me
That without the heart
In his hand
My life disintegrates
Into thin air

Even with all the pain
He has caused
I still love him

His eyes still twinkle
Like a starry night sky
And his voice is still
Sweet as candy

Why does he have to be
So amazing
Torment me with beauty
That I could never have

Time is running out
I don’t have much longer
But he won’t give it back
He still says never

But I realize this time
Maybe he is right
We weren’t meant to be

Because if this is what it takes
If this is the pain it causes
It really is not worth it

I Don't Have Super Powers

I'm sorry I'm not that amazing
I'm not so bloody brilliant
I'm not superwoman

You're asking too much of me
I can't give you the world
I'm sorry I'm not God

Will you just leave me alone
I need my space
Don't touch me
Don't talk to me

I thought it might work
You and me
But apparently not
Because I don't meet your standards

I'm sorry I can't reach
Past the heavens
I'm not magical
Or mystical
I'm just a simple
Human being

Now please
Just get out of here
My head is pounding
And I can't deal with this anymore

The Storm Continues

The storm is taking over
The rain's not ceasing
The wind is still whistling
In my ear
The thunder continues to beat
Simultaniously with my heart

I fail to conquer it
My feelings
Override my concience

Clouds block
The sweet rays of the sun
Lightning cracks
It stings my ears
How long with this storm stay

Night is almost here
And I won't be able to sleep
With this pounding
In my head